I usually take time to write my posts. Being a timetable obsessed person, I plan when I’m going to write the draft, when I’m going to source for ideas, points, reference, etc, and even the various stages of completion.

Not today.

To those of you who have enjoyed my blog and wondered about the dearth of content for some time, I must apologize. I could spout the various financial, career, medical, and social reasons for why I’ve been absent, but suffice to say my life, my work, and myself have gone through a major overhaul in this past-half year and some.

I will freely admit that my time management and scheduling skills are far from sturdy. I get highly motivated by planning out my time, and for the first few days I manage to get things done perfectly. Then life steps in, with its blasted interruptions, and my fragile hold on my time shatters. I go through a period of scrambling to put the pieces together, then I abandon those tasks I planned earlier and I create a new set, freshly motivated once more. It’s not a cycle that I am proud of, but it is one that I have come to accept.

This time I’m getting back on the wagon with a slightly different approach. Doubtless I am still going to make those tasks, and naturally the world will toss some inevitable disruptions my way, but instead of fretting about it, I am going to take it one step at a time. And for me, that includes writing a completely unplanned, unresearched, and unpolished post every once in a while. Sitting here right now, it’s a somewhat unnerving feeling, as I’m not exactly sure what to write. But I do know this, and it’s something I want to share with anyone who has felt the depression that falling off the wagon will bring:

There is nothing wrong in failing. There is nothing wrong in hitting rock bottom. There is nothing wrong in falling off the wagon, and having your entire life crumble around you while the world speeds past you. What IS wrong is not trying again. What IS wrong is not getting up after you hit rock bottom. What IS wrong is not picking up the pieces and rebuilding your life.

You only lose when you stop trying to win. And because of this, I know that even though I haven’t won yet, I will never lose. And I hope that I’ve inspired you to never lose, either.

Here’s to another round on the wagon. Cheers.